Love is… being silly!
If people around me finds out how much of a kid I am at heart when I’m with my wife, I think I’ll be so embarrassed to ever meet them again :) Loving someone and being love sets your heart free to be the person you always wanted to be, brings out the silliness in you that you rarely show to anyone else!
When was the last time I logged on to Tumblr?
I have a tendency to offend people unintentionally. Though my actions supplement as a great source of entertainment, they sometimes come with consequences. This last weekend I went to watch the new Transformers with some people. As we parked by we saw this really ghetto car next to us w/a bunch of bags, trash, etc. We laughed about it but I pushed the subject too far. Again it was hilarious, but little did I know the family that owned that car walked up to us. They were an African-American family that looked like they came from a very low income. That moment I lost my voice… and the only thing that came into my mind was “…shit.”
Thinking about it, I realize I’m very selfish. I learned that this crude behavior of mine is just to spice up my boring, pathetic life. I don’t have too many “friends” anymore who I can socialize with so I have to go out of my way to make people notice me. Of course, that was NOT the way to go. I didn’t even make an attempt to apologize to that family. I just ran off to protect my own hide.
Don’t get me wrong, I’m a sensitive, caring person on the inside, but only a hand full have seen it. It’s usually masked by this obscene, crude behavior of mine. This has been going on for so long now that it has become almost 2nd nature for me. It’s not the first time this has happened. There has been numerous times where I have offended/disappointed people. I’m not going in-depth on any of these but I can say that some have scarred people for life.
I wish I could go back in time and correct my errors… There have been so many people I’ve hurt that I feel so evil just shrugging it off as if nothing happened. Alas, the past serves as a learning experience for me. I really need to start toning down my behavior otherwise I will end up hurting more people in the future…
